Just got nauseaous ...

I have not blogged in a month and a half ... and my run is in 10 days ... sigh

New Lookie Look!!

I can't thank Beckie at Simply Chic enough for my gorgeous new background. If you are in need of a new look for your blog home check out Beckie and the ladies over there!
Thanks again honey!!!

I don't understand...

So tomorrow my mom wants to babysit... actually she got laid off so she will babysit any day / any time. She wants to see the boys / fill her day. So Russ is off tomorrow and I thought we could do something - anything - just the two of us. So I just suggested that we go ice skating at Skate on State or whatever it is because he has been promising me for idk how many years and he rolled his eyes. It's $10 skate rental. Then I said lets go to Fogo for lunch because, literally, I've wanted to go there for at least 3 or 4 years for dinner and lunch is exactly the same but less money. Really the bottom line is I want to spend more time with my husband without the kids, somewhere other than home and him sleeping.

So his response you ask? We just spent $9000 on the bathroom and got you a new car....

First off the only cost to US on our bathroom was the shower the rest is being paid for by his dad. Not $9000 to US. NOPE.
Yea we just got me a new car. $30 more a month because he got the extended warranty and detailing package. And the detailing package was given to us at cost so only a few dollars more a month - I was standing there when they told him how much it would cost.

So I started crying, and because his dad is here I went upstairs to get it out. I cried... I left Kathryn a message... I cried some more.... I washed my face and came downstairs. Now it seems like he is pissed off at me. Really? What did I do???

I really feel like he just doesn't want to spend any alone time with me. I don't know why I bother. I guess if he doesn't want to spend the time with me I should stop trying? Is that really the right answer? I didn't think so. But right now I feel like I just slammed my head into a wall. And that I did something wrong because he isn't talking to me. WTF is wrong with me?

99 Things I Ought to Have Done

I got this from my very best Kathryn at Life Happens:

99 Things I Ought to Have Done

Instructions:
Copy the list, bold the ones you've done (with explanations if needed), share with friends.

1. Started your own blog
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. Visited Hawaii
5. Watched a meteor shower
6. Given more than you can afford to charity
7. Been to Disney
8. Climbed a mountain
9. Held a praying mantis
10. Sang a solo (does the shower count?)
11. Bungee jumped
12. Visited Paris
13. Watched a thunder and lightning storm
14. Taught yourself an art from scratch
15. Adopted a child
16. Had food poisoning
17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty
18. Grown your own vegetables
19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France
20. Slept on an overnight train
21. Had a pillow fight
22. Hitch hiked
23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill
24. Built a snow fort
25. Held a lamb
26. Gone skinny dipping
27. Run a Marathon - May 1st Baby!!
28. Ridden in a gondola in Venice
29. Seen a total eclipse
30. Watched a sunrise or sunset
31. Hit a home run
32. Been on a cruise
33. Seen Niagara Falls in person
34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors
35. Seen an Amish community
36. Taught yourself a new language
37. Had enough money to be truly satisfied
38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person
39. Gone rock climbing
40. Seen Michelangelo’s David
41. Sung karaoke
42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt
43. Bought a stranger a meal at a restaurant
44. Visited Africa
45. Walked on a beach by moonlight
46. Been transported in an ambulance
47. Had your portrait painted (A nice man on the elevated train did it for me once - I still have it)
48. Gone deep sea fishing
49. Seen the Sistine Chapel in person
50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris
51. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling (Snorkled in Grand Cayman)
52. Kissed in the rain
53. Played in the mud
54. Gone to a drive-in theater (movie got fogged out by a sudden, very creepy thick unexpected fog)
55. Been in a movie
56. Visited the Great Wall of China
57. Started a business
58. Taken a martial arts class
59. Visited Russia
60. Served at a soup kitchen
61. Sold Girl Scout Cookies
62. Gone whale watching
63. Got flowers for no reason
64. Donated blood, platelets or plasma
65. Gone sky diving
66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp
67. Bounced a check
68. Flown in a helicopter
69. Saved a favorite childhood toy
70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial
71. Eaten caviar
72. Pieced a quilt
73. Stood in Times Square
74. Toured the Everglades
75. Been let go from a job
76. Seen the Changing of the Guards in London
77. Broken a bone
78. Been a passenger on a motorcycle
79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person
80. Published a book
81. Visited the Vatican
82. Bought a brand new car
83. Walked in Jerusalem
84. Had your picture in the newspaper
85. Kissed a stranger at midnight on New Year’s Eve
86. Visited the White House (outside not inside)
87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
88. had chickenpox
89. Saved someone’s life
90. Sat on a jury
91. Met someone famous
92. Joined a book club
93. Got a tattoo
94. Had a baby
95. Seen the Alamo in person
96. Swam in the Great Salt Lake
97. Been involved in a law suit
98. Owned a cell phone
99. Been stung by a bee

What makes my heart smile...

 

Tori

 

Hannalori

 

Mitri

 

Aedan

 

Kyle

 

Tori/Hannalori

 

Mitri/Aedan/Kyle

 

Aedan/Kyle

 

My Kathryn-My Twin

Another lesson learned ...

If he wanted it we would have it... If I want it there had better be a great reason period.
I've been wanting one of those hot water faucets for the sink. Why? Just because I do. He "looked" a while ago and said they were $500. I believed. I was just watching a kitchen show and they said they were $150 ... Hmmmm I didn't think the price dropped that much. So I found an InSinkErator one at Amazon.com for $130 free shipping. Just showed him and asked him aboutthe $500 price and he said "Oh that was Kohler." Oh well of course that is $500... So I said well I found it for so much less. His response was wanting to know why I need that.
I want it... Simple enough. If he did he would have looked harder way back and we would have one. We have the hole in the sink where the soap dispenser goes because I don't use that.
Whatever... It's just one more thing to let me know what my place is in this marriage and house. Chalk it up to another lesson learned.

Exercise...

Got Jillian Michael's new Yoga Meltdown... I did it this morning before the boys woke up. I died... enough said...